In a Vulnerable Conversation, Cara Delevingne Gets Real About Addiction and Mental Health

“You can’t run from the things in your life that happen, and that’s all I ever wanted to do: just pretend they don’t exist,” Cara Delevingne reflects in a sit-down interview with Vogue editor Chioma Nnadi, filmed at Delevingne’s home in Los Angeles to accompany her April cover story

The 30-year-old model and actor is used to discussing her history with mental illness and addiction; she spoke out about the depression she faced as a teenager when she first covered Vogue, in 2015. Yet as her struggles have become more public in recent months, she’s been the subject of painful scrutiny. “I got hired a lot to talk about and advocate for things like mental health for people that are struggling, but wow, when I’m struggling myself, that’s not okay—bye,” she says. “That’s the business, and it’s sad to see.”

These days, Delevingne is enjoying the firsts that accompany her healing process (she opts for that term over “recovery,” saying: “You don’t recover, and that’s okay...I prefer ‘healing,’ because I’m constantly doing it”). She was excited to experience her first sober Christmas and New Year’s this past year, and she’s deeply focused on making sure others who share her pain are able to witness and learn from what she’s going through. “Your life can change, if you give yourself a chance to really be who you are and sit in that uncomfortability, because my God, it’s uncomfortable!” she admits. “But it gets better—and it’s worth it.”

Watch the full video above.

If you or someone you know is struggling, call the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration National Helpline, 1-800-662-HELP (4357). Help is available 24 hours a day, 365 days a year. 

Director: Posy Dixon
Director of Photography: Jess Dunlap
Editor: Evan Allan
Senior Producer, Vogue: Jordin Rocchi
Associate Director, Creative Development, Vogue: Billie JD Porter
Camera Operator: Tamara Santos
Assistant Camera: Arthur Castellano
Gaffer: Ron Arredondo
Grip: Peter Arredondo
Audio: Glo Marie
Production Assistant: Mitchell Northern
Stylist: Rob Zangardi and Mariel Haenn
Hairstylist: Ryan Richman
Makeup Artist: Tonya Brewer
Groomer: Adam Burrell
Production Coordinator: Ava Kashar
Production Manager: Kit Fogarty
Line Producer: Romeeka Powell
Senior Director, Production Management: Jessica Schier
Assistant Editor: Justin Symonds
Post Production Coordinator: Jovan James
Supervising Editor: Kameron Key
Post Production Supervisor: Edward Taylor
Entertainment Director, Vogue: Sergio Kletnoy
Director of Content, Production, Vogue: Rahel Gebreyes
Senior Director, Programming, Vogue: Linda Gittleson
Executive Producer: Ruhiya Nuruddin
VP, Digital Video English, Vogue: Thespena Guatieri

Thank you to Bradley Warner and Dr. Anne M Albano.